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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 05:15

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

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He resisted the act ,that day.

I think the readers, may guess!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Why am I dreaming of people I've never seen before?

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

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I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

How did you get to be a leftist?

She loved him until the end.

And i lived it daily.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Why are there so many single moms in America?

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

When do you start "growing old"?

He knew the spot.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

But ive been too sick for many years..

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Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Why isn't bestiality illegal in most states? If children can't consent, then animals DEFINITELY can't consent. Why is being a pedophile a crime but zoophilia is not?

One cannot live in the past .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

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I was writing from the time i was a small child.

She found it foreign!.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

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Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

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Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

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This is how, and why children get BPD.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

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This is soul school!.

We all went to grammer schools

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Is depression a cause for always feeling tired?

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

My life is so biszare .

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I waited trembling.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I was 9 years of age.

She married twice! .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Put me off passion for life!!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Especially a lifetime of it.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I never cut or harmed myself..

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

So whats the point in blame.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I will be 64.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

(And it was in our own minds.)

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

We were not on the streets..

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Would this be the day?

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

What did i know ?

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I had hoped to write a book about this .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

She was in good health!

I could never make a relationship work though!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

So, i spoilt her more .

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I was seconnd youngest,

Who then, do I blame.?

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I said to her

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

She wouldn,t have been !

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I couldn’t, believe it.

My family never makes their pension either.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I write beautiful poetry .

Im dying but, im not bitter.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

All the time i was locked up.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I don,t even have a pension.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Comes on , in middle age.

I was very sick at this time too.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Ive learnt so much.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

It was going to be , some day.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

When she asked me how she looked .

Im still living with it.

As i do to all so called friends.?

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

But, we were locked up after school.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

But it wasn’t much.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I have no regrets .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I was scared of men, in general

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Was to survive, this bastard.